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  Life is still a rollercoaster, just with fewer seatbelts right now. Hi. Six months fly by so quickly. I'm checking back in, though my mind feels incredibly crowded these days. A lot has been on my mind lately. For the past two months, I’ve been struggling with insomnia. My current routine involves waking up at 2:00 AM to pump milk and taking over with baby Isabelle, bringing her into my room from the maid's. After that, I will stare at the ceiling until 5:00 AM, only to officially start my day at 7:00 AM on weekdays. On tougher days, the kids are up by 6:00 AM! Life moves along with its usual ups and downs. Work-wise, I recently broke a Protaper Next S2 instrument during a root canal and perforated a tooth during an access cavity. It's a humbling reminder that mistakes still happen, no matter how long you've been practicing. On the bright side, JB clinics have a workplace rotation policy now. It’s meant to refresh the environment and stop "I've been here long...

When I was little, I always thought growing up would solve many problems, but later I discovered that growing up is just the beginning of the problems.  Recently, I’ve been thinking a lot about how to keep someone by your side; how to earn their loyalty and faithfulness. I used to believe that giving more, sacrificing more, or spoiling them with gifts would be enough. But it doesn’t work. Some people are simply never grateful, no matter how much you do for them. That led me to question myself: What did I do to deserve this? I genuinely tried my best. I went the extra mile, again and again. Late-night thoughts then took me back to my younger self. Back then, everything seemed to go my way. Even when I wasn’t at my best, there was always someone or something—that helped me through. At first, I thought it was because people were kind. Then I wondered if it was because of my looks, or because I was funny and friendly. Eventually, I thought maybe it was God who was providing for me all...

I realize why bible doesn't say "Love your parents" -because love is a feeling but honor is a choice.  Even when they don't understand you,  even when they are difficult and even when they weren't perfect. -God ask for honor even when love feels hard. Le hubby manage to come back celebrate Aelfred's 3 years old BDay. Isabelle 3 month old and Aelfred 3 years old! It's almost 2 years being in a long distance relationship with le hubby. Looking back how depressed I was when we started to discuss about why he have to move to another city/far away from me.  Well, I should have calm down. LIFE KEEPS MOVING FORWARD, no matter what happens-it is the changes that make you stronger. YES le hubby is away from 2024 till at least 2027.  "Most woman are not looking for men to take care of them anymore. They are just looking for a man they don't have to take care of" Well, at least hubby provide financially for me RN.  Life wasn't so bad while doing eve...