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Life is still a rollercoaster, just with fewer seatbelts right now.
Hi.
Six months fly by so quickly. I'm checking back in, though my mind feels incredibly crowded these days.
A lot has been on my mind lately. For the past two months, I’ve been struggling with insomnia. My current routine involves waking up at 2:00 AM to pump milk and taking over with baby Isabelle, bringing her into my room from the maid's. After that, I will stare at the ceiling until 5:00 AM, only to officially start my day at 7:00 AM on weekdays. On tougher days, the kids are up by 6:00 AM!
Life moves along with its usual ups and downs. Work-wise, I recently broke a Protaper Next S2 instrument during a root canal and perforated a tooth during an access cavity. It's a humbling reminder that mistakes still happen, no matter how long you've been practicing.
On the bright side, JB clinics have a workplace rotation policy now. It’s meant to refresh the environment and stop "I've been here longer" toxic "seniority" attitudes and refreshing the vibe. The only downside? Worry that they might rotate me to a clinic far from home. Haiya. lowkey excited about moving to a new clinic. May it be a much better, smoother, and more awesome experience!
Before kids, a long drive was just an inconvenience. Now, it means forcing 4-year-old Aelfred to become a morning person against his will just so I can drop him at preschool early. Mom guilt is real.
On the family front, Isabelle is officially one year old and has entered the toddler phase. Our current night routine is sitting her at her mini IKEA table for story time. She doesn't really talk yet except occasional dramatic scream. I decided to test her skills yesterday. To my surprise, when I pointed on something, and she could named so many things perfectly. Turns out she’s a quiet observer, not just a screamer.
Aelfred was a talker first before he ever took his first steps. Isabelle? Complete opposite. She started walking before she even hit one, and by now, she walks pretty fast lol.
Friday is officially my favorite day of the week! I’ve minimized my posting to just the weekends. So Fridays are reserved for jamming out to my favorite weekly videos on social media. Nothing special; I just really wanted to cut down my screen time. It is so exhausting to subconsciously worry about who liked or commented on my post/story. Though, I have to admit, I still get a little spark of joy when my mom drops me a "like."
Weekdays mean my mom comes over to visit in the evening. Honestly, becoming a mother of two has made me appreciate her so much more. I can totally feel you, Mama! How is it that my mother is still so motherly, even after all her children have grown up and moved out?
Mama very consistent visiting me on weekday.
The other day, I asked her if she feels lonely looking at our empty rooms at night. Her response? "I'm glad you've all grown, but some nights, I still open the doors just to look inside."
It made me think of how I still walk down memory lane whenever I visit her house, remembering exactly where I used to play and hide. With five siblings, mom, and a maid all under one roof, you had to book your bathroom slot in advance. My mom helps me so much with my own motherhood journey. Lately, that support looks like turning my backyard into an agricultural farm. I now have sugarcane, avocado, pandan leaves, chili, and so many more!
Mama is a true green finger yo.
Some exciting news: Hubby Nic is coming back this August for our annual family time to celebrate Aelfred’s 4th birthday! Hopefully a simple pure visit. Not planning for third child.
On a funny note, two colleagues told me they aspire to be like me—the ultimate "chill mom of two." Aside from thanking God for keeping me sane and strong, secondly my husband..actually I am very thankful to my maid. Ever since that last incident, we’ve been living in total peace, working hand-in-hand with zero complaints.
I manage to bring my little family (Maid, Aelfred, Isabelle and my niece- who is staying with me for a year now) to a road trip. yea
Between work and sleepless nights, I somehow managed to orchestrate a short family getaway. We took a flight, enjoyed a lovely 4D3N stay at the JW marriot hotel, tackled a 3-hour train ride, and wrapped it up with a 1-hour drive to the Hard Rock Hotel. Managing all those bags and children across planes, trains, and automobiles without losing my mind? Pure elite parenting right here.
2 weeks ago, I was chatting with this new colleague who just graduated from dental school (his first day at work). Brought back a flood of memories from my own first day 6 years ago.
Talk about a reality check! When my first patient sat in the chair, they threw so many chief complaints and backstories at me that I completely froze. I had no idea where to start and literally had to secretly ask my DSA, 'What exactly are they here for?' We all start somewhere!"
It’s funny to look back on now, but the FIRST DAY imposter syndrome is so real.
After the over shared moment, I told my another colleague and she was like “your stories are very helpful and we are lucky” -How comforting. Hopefully.
Alright got to go to pick up Aelfred. Thankyou for reading.
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